homesick

Its that time of the year again. The time where everyone goes overseas, the time where a lot of my friends goes to the place i call home.
HK I miss you so much. Not just the food, but my family, I miss them so much. I miss my my aunties and uncles.   I miss my 5th uncles cooking. I miss holding onto 5e while shopping. I miss going breakfast with 6e and masao every saturday. I miss playing wii with masao.. i miss going to eat jook with 4e. I miss choi yi. I miss clearwater bay. I miss seeing everyone on CNY. I miss the food. the family. I miss every aspect of it.





something totally out of topic...

I am having those feelings again. Those uneasy feeling ones where it seems as though i don't deserve him. Sure, his had his fair share of contributing to my heartbreaks and sleepless nights. But when you  really think bout it. He is also the one that will take you home regardless how late it is at night. his also the one that will let you go off at him for no reason, simply because he knows you were having a bad day. He's the one that sits there and listens to you talk, the one that will lay in bed with you listening you talk until you fall asleep..

And me? what have I done?
nothing but whinge. complain and whine. i whinge when he doesnt call me on time. I whinge when he doesnt answer my calls, i whinge when his tired.

sometimes, it just feels like he is much better off without me.

days like these really kills me on the inside.