Apparently I am low

Honestly I never thought I would blog about this, but here I am blogging about it, once and for all.

So tonight I randomly receive a message from this particular someone. This particular person was once a very very good friend of mine, but over time shit happens and things change. She decided to call me " irresponsible" and "low" and how I am such a disappointment and how she hope she never runs into a person like me again.People would probably think I am upset by this, but there's only one thing I can say to her, and that is, " I could say exactly the same to you, couldn't put it better myself."

For months I have kept my mouth shut about what happened, for months I haven't mentioned one single word about it. You can continue mocking me, continue saying shit about me, continue saying how low I am or whatever you want to say about me. But just a reminder to you, I can do exactly the same to you, going around telling people about you etc . I just choose not to say anything because I still have respect, not to you, but to society. I don't need to go around the world telling people what kind of a person you are, simply because you aren't even worth that bit of effort.

I know you read this, and I know you stalk me. Let me just tell you, my life has been drama free ever since you stepped out. I am sick of people thinking of me as though I am living under your shadows. I am sick of people talking shit about you and I am the one that would have to put up with it and jump to your defense. I am sick of hearing your dramatic life, one that you chose to walk into. Yes I too have a thing for the dramatics, but I don't ask for it. I don't ask to be an only child with a sick mother. i didn't ask to have move out and having to live and support myself. i didn't ask to not have money. Unlike you, I wasn't born with a silver spoon in my mouth. You say you support yourself, I think you have misunderstood what that means. Realise this, at the end of the day, you still have a mother to support your living, to provide you shelter, and your daily needs. You still have a family who would care for you, who would sit down with you when you are upset and down. But me? I go home facing 4 walls and a fish, whatever happens in my life, I can only deal it myself. You grew up with a family, I grew up moving around a lot. You and I are from completely different worlds. You grew up being spoil, I grew up through fear and forcing myself to be independent.

Lucky for me, I have a supportive boyfriend. I cherish everything I've got, unlike you - you see everything as toys, you take things for granted. I can no longer stand being friends with you. Your value and mine are just too different, there's a saying that a friend of mine told me just recently,

Who you are is reflected in who you associate with and trash will always go into the rubbish bin.

Like I've said, I am not saying I don't have faults in this. But let me just make it clear to you now, our friendship was long gone right before the feud. The day I lost respect for you was the day you lost respect for yourself. I no longer wanted to associate with a person who doesn't have respect for themselves.