Time

There are so many thoughts running through my head right now. Its going to be one of those nights ..

I know, its been so long since I blogged, yet right now I really need to just joint my thoughts down in words. I am sorry if this is all too random, but I guess its just what happens in my wondering mind.

I am 22, I have not had much great achievements in my life, unlike some people I see around my age. I know my abilities, I know what I am capable of. I know I am not a stupid person, so why do I feel like I have failed? Its because I have made so many stupid choices during my younger years. I regret. Yes, I regret.

Even though I know its not too late for me to pick my game back up, I know compare to others around my age. I am delayed. Knowing this makes me feel crap. Why did I waste so much time on useless stuff? Why did I make such stupid choices? ..

I don't want to go down through that path again, where I give empty promises to myself & my family. I don't want to let my love ones who have so much faith in me down again. I want to let them know that I am not the stupid little girl anymore. I am capable of making my own wise decisions and be able to succeed in life.