STFU, I GET IT.

I AM TURNING 21. SHUT UP.
I GET IT.

Not like it ever made a difference to YOU .
you threw me out and told me to live by myself right after i hit 18.

Can't people just get the fuck off my back for ONE fuckn day  

Clingy vs. Dependence.

I don't like to be a clingy girlfriend. But from my previous experiences, both of my exes had told me at one point or another that I am clingy. Quoted from one,  " Jenny, you are an independent girl, but emotionally you are very dependent and clingy. " 

Is that possible?

I don't want to be known as a clingy girlfriend. I don't want to be known as a girl who depends on their man - I don't think I do, Do I ? I know that deep down, I have a lot of insecurities. Towards him as well as myself. But I've got to let those negativities go if I want this to work.

I just want to find happiness, I just want to feel safe and secure. I just want to feel love. 

What doesn't break you only makes you stronger .

A person once told me, "Being in a relationship is not hard, but maintaining a good relationship is." 

So, what defines as a "good relationship"?

I have no definition of it, nor do I know what it means. Henry and I fight a lot, over the stupidest things sometimes. But in the end, we pull through. But whenever we fight, people automatically think that, " Oh they fight a lot, they must have a bad relationship. " But its not true, at least I don't think it is. 

For my preference, I like a honest and comfortable relationship. Where I can be as disgusting as I want without thinking about what my boyfriend thinks of me. Hence why I burp in front of Henry's face all the time =p 

Awhile ago, I was out at a late night coffee session with two of my closest friends, a guy and a girl. Both currently in relationships. And we had a really interesting conversation. The guys been in his currently relationship for over 1 and a half years, and the girl is currently kind of in one of those on and off relationships, for almost 1/2 year. 

As we talked about our relationships, I realised that its not the amount of time that people's been together that matters. Its the feeling, like .. " It's quality, not quantity." My guy friend hardly sees his misses where as my girl friend sees her mister daily. 

My guy friend complains about not seeing her enough while my girl friend complains about how she's kind of sick of him.

So where do I stand in my relationship? I see Henry a few times a week, and we fight almost on a weekly basis. Over stupid stuff at times. Sometimes big, sometimes small. He gets on my nerves with his actions while I tend to piss him off with my continuous nagging and whining. 

If there was a healthy relationship rating-o-meter, I wonder where my would stand?

random blog. Just jotting down thoughts.

Toodles,

Jenny. 

Guess whos back, back again.

I know I've been lagging posts but I have a valid reason.
My laptop decided to die on me approximately a month ago and I was actually living without a computer for the last month of so, Thank God for Mobile Facebook tho :) teehee.

While I was away from the cyber world, not much has happened in my social world either. I've been going down to Strathfield quite often these days. Caught up with some friends, been seeing Faye quite often - its actually a record comparing to  the amount of time I got to see her last year.hehehe, love you fayeness.

Zaia Grand opening was 2 weeks ago, the atomsphere was really good. Everyone should give zaia a try.

I am turning 21 in a about 2 weeks. I am so ceebs with organising. I wish someone would just surprise me lol. I kid, i kid. But yeah .. :)

Went to Outback Steakhouse the other night with Crystal, Michael & Aaron. I am still in love with Bloomin' onions.

Blah .. not much to update about.
Speak later,
Jenny.xx