indescribable

The pain I feel is indescribable. It hurts, it aches, its like a 100 knives stabbing me, at the same time. I never thought I'd have to go through this heartache again. But I guess in reality its otherwise.

What do I do now?
Where am I meant to go?
What's my next step?
I don't know.

All I know is, I don't want to feel like this, I don't want to go through the same repetitive process over and over again.

Let it go? ...
I am not ready, not ready to say goodbye.
Not ready to let this go.

It was something special.
This means a lot to me .. I  really wanted us to work things out.

I really wished I never had to find out ..

No, things are not meant to be like this. Things were not meant to turn out like this. We were meant to be happily together, achieving that dream together. Our cafe ..

Everyone likes us being together, everyone was happy for us.We were happy for us.
Why, why do things always have to go wrong. Why do good things always stuff up.

I love you.. but ..
I really don't want to feel like this.

What do I do?