I don't want this anymore.

You have no idea how much this insecurity bullshit had been killing me.
You think I am all okay and fine and have gotten over it.
No, I haven't. And it still hurts everytime it comes on my mind.

How am I meant to trust you now? How am I meant to be know that this time, you will actually put efforts into this and not stuff things up. It hurts you know, it really hurts. You obviously don't understand, because you weren't the one that had go through the pain.

Why did you have to promise me something that you couldn't keep. Why did you have to bring your past into your present. Whats she gotten on you that you just can't let go. If you can't let go, why did you start being with me. Why do you have to keep doing things behind my back .. Why ..


I admit, when I am with you. I feel all safe & secure. But once you are out of my sight, the doubts and insecurities all come back. For all I know, you could be messaging her, talking to her, telling her how much you missed her. You even met up with her behind my back only having me finding out a month later from a friend.

What the hell are you doing to me?
Why do you have to do this to me?

Do you know how scared I am?
No you don't, you have absolutely no idea.

I can't put up with this anymore. It's driving me insane.
I fought so hard for us.
I wanted us to work out.

You have no idea how much you have hurt me .. over and over again.

There are times where I wonder, why should I fight for this, when at the end all I am going to be is second place.

I don't want to be 2nd place.

You never fought for us...
You never even cared ...

If you did, why did you have to fuck things up for us again and again?

You weren't ever sorry for what you did, because you kept doing it over and over again.

You were sorry that I found out.

You said you haven't spoken to her, but sooner or later you are going to go back to your old ways.
Like you always do.

I don't like her, I really don't.
I don't know her, but for the fact that you brought her into our relationship problems makes me dislike her.
I wish yous could just stop having anything to do with each other.
I don't fucken care if you's still want to be friends..
Yeah, I am selfish. So what?
Why should I give a shit about what you want when you don't  give a shit about what I want.
This is my relationship, and I want things to work.
And if you talking to her, being friends with her is stuffing things up for us. Then straight out, fuck off.

I don't want this fucking up anymore.

I am so sick and tired of this bullfuckingshit.